Let’s get to the juice of it all!

I was born in the cheese head state of Wisonsin in Milwaukee, to the best parents I could have ever asked for. I am the baby of 10:) We moved to Pine Bluff, AR in 2007; which I now know is a miracle in disguise (hated every part of living in the South-sue me) because my spiritual journey to rediscovering myself has evolved to this blog!

Having gone through a few “back-stabbing and being back-stabbed” phases is what I believe resulted in my time of long-term seclusion.  I hated the feeling of being back-stabbed but yet I continued to involve myself in drama to fit in.  I eventually drifted away from friends and worked on myself to figure out why I was always “stuck in the middle”.  That time of not having much of any friends forced me to figure out who Lia was. It was scary at first because I was young and just wanted to have fun(I’m only 22 though guys lol) Most of the time I ignored her and only did surface work: go to church, read my Bible and maybe watch sermons online. Humanities: Summer 2013 is when the turning point of my spiritual outlook changed.

I remember my mom and sister taking a Humanities class and warning us about it making you question your beliefs but to stand firm in what you believe in. I’m very open-minded, I love to learn and I’m rebellious -sue me- so at first I was resistant to everything our professor said.  We had a homework assignment to watch the Zeitgeist movie and it blew my mind of all the correlations to history before Jesus’ life.  Living in the Bible Belt; a lot of my classmates did not agree with the teachings but I began to get curious and questions my own beliefs. I’m fairly quiet so in class I didn’t say much of anything but my mind was constantly wandering. Fear of going to hell and being told it was all evil drew me back from learning more but it was brought back to surface a couple years ago as I transitioned to become natural. I still have so much to figure out but I am at true peace that I am safe. No matter what path I take in my spirituality; my intentions are to remember MY  Truth, not what mom, dad, sister, friend, pastor tells me but MY TRUTH. It’s a lifelong journey…

I’m far from who I once was but still at a place where I don’t know exactly who I am yet.

I’m a proud graduate of THE University of Arkansas at Pine Bluff with a bachelors in Agriculture Business.  My college experience wasn’t TOO memorable because of my seclusion. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE the friends I did make during that time but I feel as though it could have been a better experience if I had shown my TRUE self but… fear. To this day only a pinch of people “truly” know JaLia outside of family.  Everyday my mission to reveal more of JaLia for who she truly is.  I’m in a position of having an urge to live out my deepest and wildest dreams because I am young and not tied to anything or anyone.

Taking advice from adults 30+ and not allowing myself to compare what I’m doing versus my age group encourages me to go after my dreams. Traditional jobs do not interest me unless there’s meaning behind it; I want to know that my work is benefitting someone and actually love doing it.  I am interested in spirituality of all sorts, reading, journaling, being in nature(when it’s not hot) and dancing to ratchet and electronica/pop music (balance).  I recently began gardening and it is a HOT experience in this Southern weather, I’ll blog about my gardening lessons later.

Seeing some of my peers graduate and land careers in their fields and living life is so inspiring but I know it’s not for me.  Not sure if I want the house with a white picket fence anymore.  I want to live with and shadow a midwife, backpack the country, be a bartender in a metropolitan city, get PAID to travel the world, grow all of my own fruits and vegetables, live my life as I please and get paid for it. I KNOW this is possible.  I know people who are experiencing it. I just have to BELIEVE it for myself and know that no matter how it looks; it’s all working out for my good.

Getting over what others think of me is a process as well… It’s not worth being tied down to but it is something I deal with along with depression from time to time… I don’t want to be confined to a J.O.B. for most of my life to make it LOOK good, I want to FEEL good about it too!  As an UnFranchise Owner; I’m working to get money out of the way so that I can live out my dreams which is one of the scariest most exciting feelings I’ve ever experienced because it will happen… its only a matter of time.

I know that my purpose is in the lines of helping people in some way, shape or form because of my passion to see better for individuals.  It’s revealing itself as I continue to learn who I AM!

Love,

JaLia S.